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{ thankfully, he does keep quiet at that, seemingly pleased by the answer if the way he squeezes thoma's hand is anything to go by.

he only lets go when they reach the teleporter, wasting no time in inputting the details for nightwake so they can go back to the apartments. but, right before he hits the enter key (and after checking no one else will be able to hear) he has one last thing to add: }

I'll bear that in mind for the future.

{ it probably sounds as much like a threat as it does a promise. }

[ It's absolutely both and the last thing Ayato probably sees before they teleport is the way Thoma's face flushes bright red. ]

[ How he manages to get them back to his apartment without 'not restraining himself' in some tucked away corner is nothing short of miracle. It doesn't last long at all once they're through the door though, because it only takes a quick glance toward a certain spot in the room before he's tugging Ayato straight for the bathroom. ]

[ Desperately trying to pretend he's not blushing all the harder as he murmurs. ]

Rui's not home.

{ just like clockwork.

but as soon as they're through the door, ayato is trying to toe off one shoe as thoma is doing that glance to see if rui is home. one shoe is off, and just as he's starting on the second he's pulled. it's probably one of his least graceful moments as he trips over the one shoe he did get off, accidentally kicking it aside, and stumbling along after him. }

Ah--

[ Thoma's quick to reach out an arm at least, turning to catch the other man before he can fall with some confusion. He glances down to see what Ayato could have tripped on and- ah. ]

[ His eagerness is getting him into trouble again. ]

Oh- here, let me help.

[ Is Thoma about to get down on his knees to take off Ayato's shoes for him with a delicacy that belies how flustered he is, absolutely. ]

{ in all fairness, his eagerness is entirely ayato's fault. he purposefully laid the groundwork for this to happen, he shouldn't be surprised. }

You still need to take your own off. { it's quiet though, eyes lidding as he watches the gentle way thoma moves to help. he's in good enough hands that he can turn some of his attention to the wet gloves, peeling those off and tossing them to the floor beside that already removed shoe.

he was trying to be kind enough to leave most of the articles of clothing that had been drenched by the doorway, careful to not step it into the apartment. }

[ Thoma is an avid support of #AyatoDidNothingWrong, even if he's a frequent victim of it. ]

[ And it's with a surprisingly serious tone that Thoma uses when he looks up to face Ayato, the other man's shoe fully off and in hand now. ]

My lord, with all due respect, I don't have nearly enough patience to get my boots off until you are either in the shower or on my bed.

[ His ears might be burning red as he says that but please, he's only human. ]

{ his foot lands back on the floor, which is likely a good thing as blood rushes to his face faster than either of them are likely prepared for, thoma's words catching him off guard. }

I hope you aren't implying you'd get in the shower with your boots on, Thoma.

{ he exhales, almost like he's been holding his breath since those words left the other's mouth.

then he's pulling off his coat, not even bothering to try and hang it anyway and just dumps on the floor next to his gloves and singular shoe. }

And the shower would be a little complicated right now-- { he isn't saying why yet, but the reasons are twofold. } --so let's go with bed.

[ Thank the archons they're the only ones in this apartment right now because he'd die again if someone else had heard him say that. But it is in fact impossible for him to even think of starting to untie his boots until... until he'd confirmed that this was real? Until he had Ayato against him or under him or...? In his hazy mind, he hadn't been sure of which. But his bed was a good step toward it. ]

The bed then.

[ Ayato's shoe is neatly set aside amid the falling clothes, which is all the prompting Thoma needs to lose his own jacket and gloves as he stands back up. Both join Ayato's clothes on the floor of the hallway and he hesitates a moment before peeling off his shirt as well to join them. ]

[ Sorry Rui, he'll clean all this up later, please don't come home early today. ]

{ three weeks of thinking and it feels like so much is happening and not enough at the same time. but he's unfortunately incredibly aware of the patch on his side, at the concern and worry that is going to take over the moment as soon as his top goes up.

even if he's also incredibly distracted by how many layers of clothes thoma loses in what feels like an instant.

but before the moment is ruined, he'll say it now. }

I want to make it very clear, I don't want this to stop, nor do I want you to be overly concerned. I'm fine.

{ as much as he may sound commanding, there's definitely a tone of worry there as his hands move to pull his own top up and off. it's a little awkward because his collar is practically glued to his neck with rain, but once it is it'll be incredibly clear what he means.

there's bandages, a patch and tape over his side, a few cuts and bruises elsewhere, but they are clearly not the thing he was talking about. }

[ Thoma nearly opens his mouth to ask, but then Ayato's stripping off his top and his gaze flickers down to take in those traces of injury across Ayato's body. There's that flash of guilt that happens every time he's seen his lord in some state of injury, as if it's fault directly that he's injured even though he knows reasonably that he can't protect Ayato every hour of the day. Even more so here, where all of them would head out for days at a time on quests. ]

[ This is just what can happen. ]

[ All the same, his eyes soften, but he holds back those unwarranted feelings of guilt and failure of protecting Ayato to focus on him and his words. If he lets himself get caught up in this, he feels like they'll never be able to step past their relationship as master and servant, and it'd hurt too much to lose that chance. So he reaches out instead, letting his hand fall to Ayato's waist opposite that patch and leans in to murmur softly. ]

I won't stop. Though I hope you will forgive me for being gentler from now on.

[ Emboldened, he dares to press a kiss over Ayato's shoulder, in part to hide the small, shy smile he gives as he hopes again. ]

Or let me make it up to you once you are fully recovered.

[ At least this has done miracles for his patience. ]

{ he hyper focuses on thoma's face, checking for signs of his feelings and thoughts as he processes this. it isn't the first time he's been injured, nor will it likely be the last, but it's not as though he doesn't know the outcomes.

and then when that softer way he's looked at happens he lets out a small sigh of relief. his eyes close for a moment, relishes in the feeling of his hand on his skin again. his hand moves to the back of thoma's neck, fingertips delving into his hair, lightly pulling at the tie there. }

If I'm forgiven for not telling you about this before now, you're forgiven.

{ it's a quiet murmur, and he forces his eyes open again just in case he misses anything, even if thoma's head is tipped down to kiss against his skin. at least this gives him easier access to murmur quietly in his ear as well. }

But I'll hold that to you, { and his other hand will lift up then splays across thoma's chest instead, craving the touch but also wanting to gently nudge him, pushing him back towards his room, one gentle step at a time. } when I'm fully recovered.

{ you can stop hoping, thoma, it's happening. you don't need to hope for something you already have. }

[ You try having a giant crush and attraction to someone you thought you could never hav- ... wait. Never mind. ]

[ Hearing Ayato agree to his offer pulls a smile out of him, even more so as his ear goes red from hearing his lord's smooth voice so close. The smile's still there as he's nudged back, shifting to something more warm and affectionate as he turns to finish leading them back into his room. With a hint of teasing to it. ]

I hope you weren't trying to hide it from me.

[ And honestly Ayato's injury is helping a lot in his self-control, because he doesn't push the clan leader back onto the bed as he may have been tempted to when he was in a dazed state of mind. Undoubtedly getting one edge of the bed wet in the process. Instead he'll reach out for Ayato again to pull him into another kiss once his bedroom door is closed, far sweeter and affectionate than the ones before. ]

It hasn't been that long. { it's a softer protest as well, too caught up in the way his feet move across the floor, heading back into the same room they'd been together in before. only this time it's different. this time thoma knows completely what he's doing, nor is he a hazy mess (yet) and they're both here knowing that there would be more to come.

not necessarily just with this, but other things as well. } I wasn't sure how to broach the subject.

{ but that's the last he'll say now they're in the room. he feels the door close behind them, anticipation curling in his stomach, and then he's kissed again. the sweeter and more affectionate style to it as appreciated and enjoyed just as much. in fact, in a way, it brings more of a flush to his face than the raw desire ones had.

it means a lot more, in a way. cements what is actually happening here.

cements it more when both of ayato's hands are moving up to curl up and around thoma's neck, pulling him closer and against himself. }

[ Thoma melts. Melts into the arms that wrap around his neck, pulling them closer and he's sure Ayato can feel his heart beat when their bodies press together. Melts into the kiss with a quiet, pleased sound as he's hypnotized once more by how soft Ayato's lips are. Melts at the look on Ayato's face when his own eyes flutter open and he catches the soft flush on the other's cheeks that heat up his own with a innocent pleasure at getting to see that expression. ]

[ His hands come to a rest loosely around his lord's waist and it takes losing his breath for him to break their kiss finally. Even then he lingers close, letting his shallow pants for air fall in the air between them. ]

Is there...

[ He has to pause to lick his lips and catch up to his thoughts because really, he could just kiss Ayato forever. ]

Is there anywhere else I should be careful of... ?

{ his lips stay parted when the kiss ends, eyes staying closed as he focuses on trying to remember air is something he needs. it's difficult to consider, when it feels like the man in front of him is probably worth more than oxygen.

so this time, it's his own impatience that has him leaning forward, kissing along the line of thoma's jaw. he presses gentle brushes of lips up to his ear, pausing just behind it, only to suck on the skin there right after. he blows on the spot when the damage is done, a small red mark in place. }

No, that's the only place. { his voice is lower when he speaks this time, careful because he's already so close, but also due to the want already coursing through him. } I hope you're aware I'm not going to break if you let go a little more.

[ He whimpers softly at those little kisses and chokes back an entire moan when Ayato works over a spot behind his ear, helplessly sensitive and aware of every touch the other man presses against his skin. It sends a shock through his entire body every time, the knowledge that it's Ayato right here, pressed against him, wanting him... it's overwhelming. He'll drown like this, and he'll drown happily. ]

[ The weak laugh he gives bubbles from his throat, already dry with need. ]

I might. You don't know how crazy I am for you.

[ The kiss he gives Ayato's bare shoulder is shy, but the small tug he gives on Ayato's hips, pressing theirs together, reveals just how affected he is from just this much. ]

Edited 2023-04-19 23:50 (UTC)

{ his eyes close at the contact, both lips on his skin but also the way their hips are pulled together. he may not be in quite the same state yet, but thoma has been a lot more careful with him since he found out about the injury. he's also been the one doing the riling up so far. }

I don't know about that-- { his voice is already low enough, but there's a faint rumble to it now as he holds back a small laugh. } --after all, you did throw me back on the bed and fucked my thighs so hard I had to wear lotion for days.

{ his mouth is still hovering near his ear, enjoying the faint noises he pulls from the other with the kisses. keeping it there makes it easier to whisper these things in his ear too. as if they're sharing secrets. }

Not that I'm complaining, I've been thinking about it enough the past few weeks.

[ Aaand that sends his blush shooting down over his neck and shoulders, jolting slightly as that information sinks in and the immediate mental image his imagination helpfully supplies makes him moan. Even as he stutters over his words, fingers curling to dig into the small of Ayato's back a bit more in his arousal. ]

O-oh I'm so glad I'm not the only one.

[ Ayato please stop riling him up, he's going to pop. As is, he turns his head to catch the other in another kiss, finally pushing off the door to guide Ayato back toward the bed. ]

I need to- Please excuse me.

[ Of course Thoma would ask to be excused as he scrambles to take off another man's pants. ]

{ he's close enough to see the flush spread, to feel the jolt of the other's body with how close they are to one another already. his own breath stutters slightly, though that is more because the fingers in his back make him press closer, his body shifting against thoma's.

and then there's another kiss, one he meets with gusto. his hand tangles back in thoma's hair, the other reaching to follow the line of his shoulder and arm, squeezing lightly at the muscles under his skin.

when it breaks again, thoma asking to be excused is something he'll ignore for the moment because: }

Did you honestly think you were?

{ no, he needs him to know this. there's no point in going ahead with this ahead if they'll just be awkward about it afterwards. he's already taken the first step with that kiss in the rain. he wants to be very clear now he has the chance to. }

I didn't get any sleep that night for one thing, in fact I've lost count of how many times I had to catch myself drifting when I was supposed to be working. { oh wait, actually-- } Oh--I should probably be clear this wasn't just about sex, shouldn't I?

{ thoma please do not mess up getting the zip undone because of this. words are apparently very difficult when he's also aroused and hoping they can both get their clothes off faster. }

[ It's a good thing Thoma hadn't gone down on his knees yet like he'd been about to in order to peel down the other man's pants, because this conversation would have become rather hard to have at a more serious level. It would have been very difficult to have indeed while being distracted by a mental debate over giving Ayato a blowjob. ]

[ Luckily for him, he's standing, but Ayato's statement makes him weak in the knees in an instant. ]

I want to be with you.

[ Suddenly, it's so simple for him to say what he's been hiding forever in his heart, the words pouring out before he could control them and for that moment his eyes have never been clearer or brighter. Have never looked at Ayato as if he were his whole world, not as obviously as they are now. ]

I want to be with you, dating you, so much more than I want to sleep with you. And I want to sleep with you a lot.

I'm in love with you.

Edited 2023-04-20 05:47 (UTC)

{ it's incredible that someone so eloquent the majority of the time almost ends up a garbled mess at the words thoma says. ayato struggles, he's been struggling the last few weeks to try and put the words together and the reality is he still wasn't prepared despite trying to make this very clear here and now.

he hadn't wanted a repeat of last time, where they shuffled awkward around each other, not knowing how to act anymore.

so, for a long moment, all he can do is show it on his face. he lets his expression actually show what he feels. he shows the affection and adoration he has for thoma. he shows how much he means to him, how much he'd try to keep him safe and out of harm. how much these touches and kisses mean.

his hands move from their places at the back of thoma's neck, on his arm, to gently cup his face in both hands, drinking in the sight thoma makes when he looks at him like that. }

If you ask it of me, I'll give you anything you want. I'd give you the world, if I could. Though unfortunately the most I can offer is merely myself. I may not have realised the... extent of how I feel until fairly recently, but I-- { but his words catch in his throat, and he sighs frustrated with himself to the point he has to press his forehead against thoma's } I cannot imagine ever being with anyone else.

{ it isn't the same words, but hopefully conveys enough of a message that will give him the time to get the rest out before long. }

[ That soft laugh bubbles up again, but this one is full of fondness because he can see that Ayato is having difficulties in getting his point across with his words. He doesn't need to do. Not with Thoma, who can see it clear as as the sun in Ayato's expression; he doesn't need to hear the words when Ayato himself is giving him every answer he needs and it curls up warmly inside of him to know what he's being silently told. ]

I'm really lucky then, because you are my world.

[ There's an immediate blush spreading over his face at just how cheesy that probably came across, but he can't deny that it's the words spilling out of his heart. Ayato has been his reason for so many things in his life, from his cherished life in Inazuma to his vision. He couldn't imagine a life not being at the side of the Kamisato clan and its leader. He wouldn't. ]

[ So he smiles at Ayato as they lean into each other, eyes bright and clear with all the love and devotion burning inside of him for the other man. ]

I will always be with you.

{ and this time it's his turn to visibly melt, both at the words and the soft blush that covers thoma's face from the admission that makes him weak at the knees this time. knowing about how the other had felt for the past three weeks didn't really compare to being told it with actual words.

where he didn't have to read between the lines.

and inside these four walls he has nothing left to hide. anything he feels isn't held back, not anymore--or at least not for now. }

Then let's start with here and now, shall we?

{ it's a soft murmur, breath ghosting against thoma's lips as he speaks from being so close. his hands hold him steady as his head pulls away, only to lean and tilt to kiss him on the lips again, away from the other for what feels like less than a second.

there are certain things they'll need to go over later, worries he'll need to ease, but for now he wants nothing more than to go back to where they were before. while the kiss may have started soft he is quickly adding heat to it. his hands already start to drift, sliding down over the sides of thoma's neck until they can rest against his shoulders and then he's nudging him back, aiming for where the bed is. }

I thought you'd never ask.

[ They're melting together. Thoma sighs in relief as their lips find each other, every kiss they share is one he pours all of his held back emotions into and it's so freeing it's almost frightening. ]

[ There's a difference this time, unnoticeable if you aren't looking for it. Thoma isn't kissing Ayato like he needs him with every bone in his body (and he really, truly does). He's kissing him like he's everything he has, with worship and reverence and as if every kiss they share is something to be cherished for as long as he can. He does, he will. He's losing his breath so much faster this way, but his focus is sharper than ever as he follows that nudge. ]

[ He shifts so he's the one to hit the bed first, sitting back on the edge and vaguely thankful that his pants aren't anywhere near as soaked through as Ayato's are, just a little damp. And he's just about to pull Ayato down against him, sweep him into his lap like he's wanted to do so many times, when something strikes his memory and he has to break their kiss to murmur hazily. ]

A... Ayato-... my boots.

{ it's a wonderful feeling that he lets himself drown in, slow and deep as they both pour everything they feel into it. he keeps having to remind himself to breathe through his nose, but even then he's gasping when their lips part.

his hands still rest upon the others shoulders as he gazes down at him on the edge of the bed, lips curving into a smile at the murmur about his boots. }

Perhaps sometime soon we should get you some that are easier to remove? { his hands drops to thoma's thighs to part them enough he can settle between his legs and squeezes at the muscles there, fingers gently kneading. then, he's sinking to his knees, leaning down until he's settled enough he has to look up at thoma instead. }

Let me help this time. { and then one of his hands is moving to untie the lace, nimble fingers pulling at the threads to loosen them up all the way down to make it easier to get them off. he may not have done this personally in the past, but he's watched and seen thoma do it enough time he knows the steps off by heart. }

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